The Lonely Road

SORRY

2008-09-29T00:13:00.000-07:00

I'm so sorry....
but whn I heard you were going away..
I kinda..
tried to forget you..
and I ended up falling for another...

Mad

2008-09-24T05:31:00.000-07:00

I am so hell mad right now..
when I find the guy who ratted out on me..
I am gonna make him regeret it...
he will be in so much fucking pain...
his body pieces will be in so many places that..
there wont be enuff to put him back 2geda...
Fangs..
will tear him to shreds...

3

2008-09-20T07:31:00.000-07:00

today was like so weird and funnny..
me, John and Steffi(from John cg) all of us..
like were holdin the same phone model..
W850i...
lol..
cld play guessing game with it...

crazy

2008-09-17T06:55:00.000-07:00

I'm going crazy in this world..
will be glad when all of this is over...
thn I wont have to deal with all the hurts,
the fear,
the pain...

Cant take it..

2008-09-15T00:16:00.000-07:00

Its been so long..
but I cant forget HER...
so sad for me..
haizzz....
i kept thinking could forget about HER and move on in my life...
but after a few days of not even seeing HER...
I missed HER...

B'day..

2008-09-04T02:37:00.000-07:00

today was my B'day..

so fun..

went to LM with some frens to celebrate..

^^...

fun but my hair super messy...

=.=

Sunway Lagoon

2008-08-23T00:19:00.000-07:00

went to Sunway Lagoon yesterday...
so tired...
N sumore i was having sore throat...
haiz...
but still enjoyed myself..
especially the Tomahawk ride....
but i got my glasses bent out of shape so might be getting a new pair...
yay...

Destroy, destroy, destroy

2008-08-06T07:08:00.000-07:00

Destroy...
argh..
so mad today...
in super bad mood...
just wanna smash everything...
kill, kill, kill...
wanna make everything dissapear from my sight...
let loose the killer aura...
(sry soundin bloodthirsty but in super bad mood...)

Happy Birthday

2008-08-05T07:16:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to..
Siew Tze...
hope you will happy alwayzzz....
and hope you have good luck in your exams..
haha..
xD..
^^...

Passion Concert

2008-08-05T06:37:00.000-07:00

Chris Tomlin

Wow...

Passion was so cool.

I cant believe that it rocked so much...

so many ppl...

so cool....

Chris Tomlin..

Charlie Hall...

Louie Giglio..

all the big names all there...

haha...

Decision's

2008-07-17T23:22:00.000-07:00

these few days...
its so hard to go through it....
I think I will finally give up on chasing HER....
no use anyway...
so I'm just gonna hold on to the memories....
and if destiny wills it...
mebbe we will meet again...
I hope....
not sure bout tis decision...
gonna think bout it....
On to todays biggest news...
I got into a fight...
sry...
but it wasent my fault...
we were heading to KH when A start making stupid noises....
So I became angry n ask him to shut up..(my mood was aready quite bad at tat time)
thn he turn around n push me...
so I jus caught him in a headlock....
thn nearly punch him...
but thn heard B say dun...
so let him go lor......

Fun

2008-07-13T02:41:00.000-07:00

Yeah..

I'm kinda bloggin yester days news but anyway I cam beck late so forgive me...

First things 1st...

In theafternoon...

went 4 some fun at Youth Alpha...

cool..

we had quite a 1 human spiderweb game and freezeframes...

guess wat they're tryin to be....

answer is a crowd...xD

N tis, a church.....(looks more like a tomb...)

N here is Jeremy lookin like a erm... u figure it out urself....

Thn we also hv a video of Kaylee and Jeremy crappin...haha

so funny...

At night, went for a charity dinner...

food was ok I guess....

watched the dances from..

LE GRANDE academy...

Lol

the dances were ok I guess...

The onli dances there I thought was nice was mebbe....

4 minutes by Madonna...

and Please don't stop the music by Rihanna....

these two songs were the best to me la....

haha

Breakdancing

2008-07-11T00:32:00.000-07:00

Check out this video...

The way he dances is so good weih...

So many power moves..Wish I cld do the same as him...

But I not strong enough...

need to get more iron and whatnots...

Sienzzz

2008-07-09T06:45:00.000-07:00

Tis week having exams...
but so damn sienzzz...
onli study so little...
like
mebbe 5 pages of books.....
thn cant be bothered...
these past few days dunnoe wats happening to me....
so many decisions and choices...
its getting so crappyy....
tat its giving me a headache...
even now I am faced with another decision...
which I seriously do NOT wanna face....
crappy.....
I wish tat my life could rewind and fast forward....
thn I wont hv to go through all tis havoc and times....
Thn sumore today exams....
go online ....
gt ppl online but all so silent...
so talk to Kar Hou and Jun Qin...
Kar Hou at start lots of things to say thn after a little while quiet liao...
Jun Qin even more zha dou...
online talk like 5 words...
thn go study...
turns out she jus online cus her bro on onli...
But I did hv some gud things tat happen to me....
Some ppl told me I gt number 58 in whole form...
like so lousy rite...
but for me is nt tat bad...
I'm cool with it....
These were the things tat happened at night lar....
In school i stayed back till 3.20...
so sienzz....
go talk to Yvonne and Yuan...
(sry dunnoe spell ur name lazee go friendster check)
they so bad weih bullying Andrew Yap....
thn turn it on me and say I bully him...
-__-
so lame....
but NVm lar...
I dun care anyway....
Wow tis is one of my longest blogs....
so TTFN~~
^^.....

My choice

2008-07-07T01:11:00.000-07:00

Well I finally made up my mind...
It wasent an easy choice but...
I made up my mind..
I hope its the right 1..
if not I am so dead...

Fight to be the Strongest

2008-07-05T23:20:00.000-07:00

These past few days been so confusing...
there have been fights going on around the skul...
i was part of it..xD
but that took a toll on me...
now i m faced with a decision tat will change my future...
but I not sure wat to do..
haizz...
all i noe is tat its now a very confusing time 4 me...
Urgh....
N sumore on the Hari Keusahawanan it was quite fun lar...
I wore my outside clothes there..^^
nice weih...
haha...
tat was on that day...
Now I am super damn confused...
So yeah endin here...

2008-06-18T06:38:00.000-07:00

I put faith in my own convictions as to what I believe is right and consider them to be righteous.
(Near)
Been chasing the comic death note finally finished it....
so tiring....
but the story is good...
hard to believe but I admire Kira more than I admire L...
its weird huh....
but Kira wouldn't have lost if He din trust Mikami...
so I made up my mind in watever I do I wont trust any1...
except mebbe HER....
xD...

Penang..

2008-06-08T05:25:00.000-07:00

On Saturday and Sunday...
I was in Penang..
It was very fun...
but now I super tired so i gonna only blog about the important things....
!st...
I got a new bag....so cool....
Really good one to...
BODYGLOVE!!!!....
and I also gt a T-shirt bodyglove also....
haha...
Thn went for Joyce and Boon Khaw's wedding...
Congrats.....
The dineer was fantastic.....
after that I slept in a hotel called
Cititel....
it was quite comfy...
except that the service was a bit low-class....
Had such a good night's sleep that I din wake up till late...
and it was cus I was forced to wake up....
had the best char kuey teow that I had ever had there....
yummy....
thn came home....
hte trip was so long...
that my butt hurt....
tiring....
altogether the trip was very fun but very tiring....
haha...

Camp

2008-06-01T02:17:00.000-07:00

Been away for like 36 hrs....
So tiring....
I was up in Peacehaven...
very near genting....
So super cold there....
But It was super fun....
Had a lot of fun with my frens...
John, Joel, Ben. and the rest....
I din manage to take pics cus my mum dun allow me to take my hp up...
T__T...
haizz....
But still I have the memories...^^
It was a 2 days 1 night camp...
and I only had like 1 and a half hours of sleep....
cus busy playin...xD
So now I am so so so so tired....
But the view up there was extraodinary....
u cld see the millions of stars so clearly from up there which we could never do in K.L...
haha...
And the weird thing was...
we kept getting bullied by the W Cg people....
actually it was more of Joel gettin bullied.....
haha...
to bad Joel...
its ur own fault for being short....xP
So thats about it...
Zzzz....
I think I am gonna go sleep now...

Hari guru

2008-05-22T23:27:00.000-07:00

Today was Hari Guru in my school...
So sienzzz.....
Sit in the dewan like dumb ducks.....
I couldnt jus sit there like that so went out for a walk.....
And saw HER....
but din say a thing....
haiz....
what a fool I was....
Then 2 gangs nearly got into a fight....
both sides also my friends....
dunno who to support...
In the end dunno whether they fight or not....
but it wouldn't have been pretty....
haha....

Zzzz

2008-05-20T04:59:00.000-07:00

Its been pretty boring these few days so I havent been blogging much....
But only 1 thing is worth mentioning....
I cut my hair...
Its now like super short...
so sad....
I feel like crying...
T_________________________T...
And sumore SHE ignored me....
T_________________________T...

sienzzz

2008-05-15T03:00:00.000-07:00

Havent been blogging....
Lazy...
xD....
NVM gonna start 2day again...
FOR STARTERS....
I jus finished my exams and its been tiring....
But the good thing is i got to play 4 a whole day on the com with no1 stooping me for a whole day...
I oso started playing maple story...
xD...
quite fun actually...
Today SHE is online but I'm not going to say HI or anything because....
well....
its HER turn to have exam and if I noe HER well enuff SHE is studyin....
so yeah....
shhh.....
Ending Here...

...

2008-04-20T04:22:00.000-07:00

yeterday din hv time to blog...
so its 2 days in 1 post...
yesterday...
My parents had to go and have some CG retreat kinda thing...
so,
I stayed at home and followed Jonathan Lim here and there....
the fun wasent there...
It was when we went for dinner...
met a guy named Benjamin.
he was from singapore...
and we went to a place called Williams to have dinner...
It may hv been expensive but the food was nice.
I had some nasi lemak.
the leaders were all there...
to name a few there were Siu Fai,Melissa, Purdy, Daryl,Christine and a few more...
quite fun...
TODAY...
I went to leisure mall to celebrate a frens birthday...
went at around 12.30, came back at 6.30...so I am so tired now.

Hari Sukan

2008-04-11T01:40:00.000-07:00

Today Hari Sukan was so sienzz and freakingly HOT!!!!!
I hope that SHE din get burned or anything....
Well anyway went there late cause my alarm went nuts din wake me up......
Anyway the whole day there was so booooring ask anyone.....
Thn came back I went to the mamak store with some of my bro's....
Came back, dota for a little while...
thn had a chat with HER....
sry Yuan Wei but I rather chat with HER than play dota....

OK day...

2008-04-04T17:34:00.000-07:00

yesterday was pretty fun....
school had hari raptai....
which is the rehearsal for sports day.........
thn in school...
i pretty much pontenged the whole day....
haha....
but I walked past HER class quite a few times.....
quite fun.....

Dota

2008-03-27T02:59:00.001-07:00

Havent been blogging for a long time....
I've beeen busy....
hehe...
Dotaing ......
sry time to go Dota again

2008-03-20T02:29:00.000-07:00

These few days without HER.....
my life has been really lonely.....
I mizz HER so much.....
but I dun dare to say a thing to her.....T__T

The Lonely Soul

The lonely soul wanders

Alone in the walks of life

No other soul as his companion

The lonely soul wanders

Alone in the daybreak

He does his duties

In the walks of life

The lonely soul wanders

Alone in the life

He meets many other souls

Who comes to be

Unfit for the lonely soul

The lonely soul wanders

As the days pass by

The lonely soul became

More lonely, with no other

souls as his companion

The lonely soul wanders

Alone in the walks of life

The lonely soul decides

Not to die, but to face

LIfe in all its hardships

The lonely soul wanders

Pics....

2008-03-17T04:38:00.000-07:00

Yeah so there are the pics....haha some look quite lala....but its all fun...haha

Tired....

2008-03-16T03:43:00.000-07:00

Today went to Bukit nenas forest reserve with my cg......
It was quite fun except that lots of us got muddy shoes....
haizz.....
I had to wake up at like 6.40a.m cus my fren coming to fetch me....
so damn tired....
then we went there had games.....
the games were ok i guess...
thn we took some pics.....
I think I upload tomorrow cus I am so so so so tired.....
but I am still gonna play dota for 2 hrs...

Angel

2008-03-15T05:59:00.001-07:00

Today my sis had a angel dressing up competition...

so these are some of the pics....

She's cut huh...haha but she can be really notti...

Dota dota dota...

2008-03-13T02:13:00.000-07:00

Today I woke up early....
bit to early for my liking but still....
whatever....
played dota this time for like 7 hours.....
my hands hurt like crap like that.....
SHE started the chat with a alloe and ended in a smile....
without saying a thing.....
My love is breaking.....

Entrapment

Hopelessly bound

unfettered

by the chains of love's grip

- greatest gift,

fate's cruelest curse.

Wherefore do I weep

at knowing the joy,

the warmth,

at feeling the peace,

the fire.

Wherefore do I weep

unable to complete ,

to be,

unknown the kiss,

the flames.

Wherefore do I weep

at loving not living

seeing not touching

breathing not sharing

holding not loving?

All,

because I, The Fool,

am no more?

GG Client rocks...

2008-03-11T03:19:00.001-07:00

Today I woke up quite late...
online thn downloaded gg client..
so nice it worked....
so I spent like 6 hours just dotaing...
playin TD....
X-hero siege...
N the rest........
So nothing much to say cus the whole day was spent playing.....
A quite ok poem....
cus I really wish to make HER happy...

Happy

Go ahead and make me sad

It’s okay if it makes you happy

Rip my heart out and stomp on it

It’s okay if it makes you happy

Pour salt inside these wounds

I’ll lick them clean if it makes you happy

Corrode my heart like an ancient ruin

I’ll live there forever if it makes you happy

I don’t care if it makes you happy

I don’t care about myself just as long

As you’re always happy

I’ll survive all of this

As long as I know you’re always happy

Whatever makes you happy!

Burn the photographs; forget about me

I’ll forget about me too, if it makes you happy

I’m so sorry if I ever hurt you

Baby you’re the only thing that makes me happy

I miss the dimple upon your chin

I just miss, being happy

I’m sorry for anything I’ve done

And I’m sorry I can’t make you happy

I just wish I could make you happy

not much

2008-03-10T01:26:00.000-07:00

Today woke up on the computer...
was pretty booring....
I spent most of the day dotaing and studying.....
thn I fried a fish...
Made my whole body stink.....
SHE was online but din talk to HER...
good thing I didn't cus after I shower SHE was offline....
Thn now gonna go to tuition...
So bye...

Fun Day

2008-03-09T06:19:00.000-07:00

Havent blogged the past few days...

Well today had a blast as I went to Sungai Wang and Times Square....

It rocked except for the fact that I lost the competition...

haiz... only got number 18 out of 32.... (so lousy)

Anyway now I have a awesome lightlord deck.... with 3 of its greatest cards.... And 3d sumore

Thn parents picked me up.....
We headed to Jaya Jusco to get me a new watch...

cool huh

Anyways came back shower...

adjust the new watch setting and everything....

then now typing my blog.....

SHE'S online but busy so I wont bother HER.....

Exams over but incredibly SAD

2008-03-06T03:15:00.000-08:00

Today exams are over...
whew eventually.....
I stayed back for rumah Keruing but I pontenged it and went dueling....
Never expected that the Lightlords would be capable of such raw and awesome power ^^....
Then came back, saw HER online.....
The worse thing is as soon as I said 'hi', SHE said 'bye' T__T......
That shattered my heart into a million pieces.......
It will never be as perfect as ever....haizzz
well end for now.....
but another poem.... = [
A super SAD but represents what I'm feeling now 1

The Hole in My Heart

When you left,

You took a piece of me.

I constantly find myself

Down on bended knee.

I see you in my dreams

Every night and day,

I run to be in your loving arms

But you slowly walk away.

Why do you do this?

Why do you run?

I'm afraid to think

You're seeing someone.

I love you dearly,

And I wish you could see,

What in the world,

You're doing to me.

Whatever

2008-03-05T00:32:00.000-08:00

Well today went to school....
Had exams....
Science and english....
My hands pain after I write 647 words for my essay....
I will never write so many words again unless in college...
Ee yu kin's a pervert....
Anyways I came back, showered, eat lunch....
After that instead of studying 1st, I started constructing a lightlord deck....
the eventual outcome was worth it......
Anyways I need to go study now....
So whoever is reading this post riht now press the red x button at the top....
then turn off the computer and go study......
anyway here is a cool poem.....

Peace

Peace my brother

Peace to the world

Peace to my boys and peace to the girls

Peace to my brother that made a livin out of a dollar

Peace to the sista who is tryna holla

Peace to the old man feeding the birds

Peace to the old lady rockin on the curve

Peace to all the rags to riches

Peace to all the leaders that helped African- Americans

Peace to the dead

Peace to the past

Peace to whoever

Peace to the brotha and sister with one parent

Peace to my motha and fatha because I made it

Peace to my heart

Peace to my love

Peace to all the people lives that are fading

Peace to my love

Peace to all all my virgin buddies alone in the strug

Peace

Exams....

2008-03-04T03:41:00.001-08:00

Well today I had exams.....
so loooong.....
just to do a piece of chinese, I had to use 2 hours... wat is the goverment thinking....
Oh my goodness, Sejarah was like so freakin hard.....I think I only got like the most 50 marks... haizzzzz....
I actually spent most of the time contening... LOL
Came back, shower then went for tuition....
After tuition I came back I saw HER online but didn't say hi or anything to HER.....
So dissapointed in myself.....
now it jus makes me mizzzz HER even more......
T__T....
I found a poem that suits me right now....
its a very SAD poem.....

Seek Not My Heart

Oh gentle winds 'neath moonlit skies,

Do not you hear my heartfelt cries?

Below the branches, here about,

Do not you sense my fear and doubt?

Side glistening rivers, sparkling streams,

Do not you hear my woeful screams?

Upon the meadows, touched with dew,

Do not you see my hearts a'skew?

Beneath the thousand twinkling stars,

Do not you feel my jagged scars?

Seek not my mournful heart kind breeze,

For you'll not find it 'mongst these trees.

It's scattered 'cross the moonlit skies,

Accompanied by heartfelt sighs.

It's drifting o're the gentle rain,

A symbol of my silent pain.

It's buried 'neath the meadow fair,

Conjoined with all the sorrow there.

It's lost among the stars this night,

Too far to ease my quiet fright.

No gentle winds, seek not my heart,

For simply ... it has torn apart.

Study study study

2008-03-02T23:11:00.000-08:00

I woke up around 10.30 today.....
I slept around 12.30a.m. ok.....
well the funny thing is I went online and to day so many people online.... haiz all never go and study for exams tomorrow......
Oh I saw HER online today but only chatted with HER for a little while....
so so so so SAD...... T__T
then I added Ian, Kar Hou, Jun Qin and Vernon to 1 chatbox.....
then all of them start crappin like anything.....
oh n apparently Jun Qin and Vernon are now pak toing......
jus joking lar.......
well time to go n make some noise in the chatbox.....
I also found some really beautiful and nice love poems.....

A Perfect Moment

Beautiful eyes open across a pillow top,

It seems for this moment time will stop,

The earth slows and sounds wane,

A frozen moment without stain.

Your body close to mine,

Our hearts beat in time,

With a smile of simple pleasure,

This moment should last forever.

Some say perfection is unattainable

For most things that's explainable,

But in your arms and with your heart's affection

I have found a brief moment of perfection.

Freeze This Moment

We were sitting on your rooftop.

Staring at the skies.

The sun was dipping lower.

I looked into your eyes.

You saw what I was feelingI know you felt it too.

We wanted time to just stand still.

Then forever there'd be me and you.

Why can't we freeze this moment?

Return to it in time.

Stay together through the years.

Proclaim I'm yours and you are mine.

So let us freeze this moment

Store it safely away.

Even if we leave this place.

We'll return to it someday

Believe

What Is There,

To Believe In During Life,

Nothing Lasts,

Aside From Strife,

Life May Perish,

Life May End,

Our Soul We May Give,

Our Soul We May Spend,

But Our Love,

That Eternal Flame,

Will Never Dim,

Will Never Change,

It Will Forever Last,

When All Other Lights Leave,

For You Light My Life,

You Make Me Believe.

Boooring

2008-03-01T22:49:00.000-08:00

Today woke up at around 9.15 then started to go online....
go online that time no 1 online in msn....
so booring....
so i updated friendster and facebook...
then started studying....
but really really bored....

So Bored

2008-02-29T19:03:00.000-08:00

today went to school and recieve some dumb anugerah....
not really much use 1...
but fun cos can bring HP there and take picture of a lot of people....
I got picture of Yu Xin eating bee hoon. LoL
Oh and yesterday I got slapped on the face...
so damn pain I gonna kenakan her if its the last thing I do.....
anyway come back shower then nothing much.....

Ko Kurikulum day

2008-02-28T22:58:00.000-08:00

I remember wats her name aready (actually I asked her).... its Tong Ying Xian( a bad pengawas)..
Anyways today we had to choose our own ko kurikulum so I chose some pretty dumb ones.... swt......
the weird thing is we had no teachers till recess so we had a great time in class talkin, playin doin watever we liked....
thn da rest of the day was spent with da teachers that actually came to class and taught....
lame teachers....
anyways end here 1st....

So tired

2008-02-28T01:17:00.000-08:00

Today was a pretty cool day......
In da morning quite fun cus we have no teacher in the class so a lot of people make a lot of noise...
Thn after recess, I had to go to the school dewan to have a rehearsal for the hari anugerah....
So 'fish' man have to stand there and wait thn go up the stage pengetua ask us go back down cause we all go up to fast so not 'cantik'..... watever....
Oh and I met a new friend name is um... um....
I cant remember only remember the front got the surname Tong.... haiz
anyways thn I came back home after the yellow house practice (actually I pontenged it)..
So now I am typing my blog....
So freakin tired.....

New to this

2008-02-27T06:17:00.000-08:00

Ook......
So this is now my 1st time really blogging...
Hope I dun do nothing wrong.. =D
So since 1st post I not gonna say much...
just say bye and out....